Calm Amongst the Chaos

I was going to post about how frustrated I was with Lily’s awful seizure filled weekend, but then last night this happened and I’d rather share this.
Andi asked if Lily could lay in her bed with her. We were in a sticky situation, we are dying for Andi to want to “play” with Lily, but Andi’s bed has no rails and Lily could roll right off it. We decided to make a safe place for Lily on the bed and told Andi that she has to yell for us for any reason. That she has to be in charge with Lily in her room. She said she would.
We lie them both down, they are sharing a pillow and watching cartoons. Andrew and I were checking in on them every 5-10 minutes and all was well. Then all of a sudden we hear “MOM!” “MOM!” so I go running into Andi’s room and Andi says “she’s having a seizure!”. So we comfort Lily during it and I thank Andi for being such a responsible sister and she says to me “mom, I don’t want another sister. I love my sister. I know she can’t walk, but that is ok. I love her.”
I can honestly tell you that my heart melted and ran all though my body. My eyes welled up and I said again “thank you Andi for being such a great sister.” Now this child can fight with me at times and act like she is sent to this planet to drive me nuts, but knowing that her heart is like that, none of that other stuff matters. She is a responsible 3 year old that I know will be a compassionate and wonderful, not to mention strong willed, woman.
I love being my kids mom.