Calm Amongst the Chaos

I love Christmas and New Years. I think I just adore the entire month of December and feel blessed to have my birthday during a month of such heightened happiness. Although I find myself probably the most stressed out during December it is because I suffer from a rare condition called indecisiveness paired with an acute case of procrastination and when December comes those two disorders wreak havoc on me, but nonetheless I really do enjoy December. And I am promising to get my shopping done in November next year. Yup. Just like I do every year.
I admit I hit a deep sadness during this holiday season, but that isn’t unlike any other holiday season since Miss Lily came into our lives. I still love the holidays. I love that I am now able to admit that sadness, yell at it, cry about it and then turn the page to a new day. Sadness will always creep up, but we have power over it. I was able to have a joyous Christmas, we enjoyed our family time. Lily suffered several seizures, but when she was awake she was happy, she was engaging and she held my hand all day. What is not to celebrate about that?
I rarely really make New Year’s Resolutions and this year is no different. I just want to continue growing, learning, evolving, I need to be a less selfish person and that is something I have been working on and will continue to do so. I may never be Mother Theresa, but I do hope to learn some traits of hers.
With all that said I would like to share some photos from our last 2 weeks. I would like to say I honestly hope your holidays were a time of celebrating and being with those you love. I know that the holidays can find those who have suffered a great loss feeling a huge void and I am sorry. I pray that you were able to find sweet heavenly peace.
I look forward to seeing what 2013 has to offer and pray the year for you all is a year of joy and blessings. Don’t forget most your blessings don’t come gift wrapped saying I’m a blessing! I challenge you to seek what you receive and find the blessing in everything.
Much love!

ps Lily got an extreme hair cut. We were making life easier for all of us. It was not easy on mama. Not at all. I am looking forward to it growing out a few inches which will take days with Lily. 🙂 But I have to be honest, our days have gotten SO.MUCH.EASIER. Seriously!