Calm Amongst the Chaos

Mama of 5 seeking calm in the chaos

So this morning has already started and started hard. I am drinking some coffee and blogging at 6:34am! I know I know. I needed a break from the day already. Wonder what else could possibly be in store for this not yet even started day.
I’m used to waking up at 5:45am every morning. It is one of those perks to living in one of the only states refusing to spring ahead. By 5:30am the sun is so bright, unless I develop an addiction to crack and have to foil my windows, I will continue to be awake at 5:45am every morning, which honestly, I don’t mind. What I do mind is the kids joining me.
I use this early morning time to drink coffee, watch the news, curl up under a blanket and have some me time before the day begins, but today was not one of those days.
Lily has woken up screaming the past two mornings in the early 5 o clock hour. It isn’t something new, she goes through periods of this daily and then goes months sleeping peacefully. Yesterday though I was able to change her positioning, she gets herself uncomfortable and is unable to correct it, then I put her blanket back over her and she went back to sleep until 6:30am. Not this morning though. She was just screaming and screaming. I changed her position, I covered her, she was quiet. I sneak out, she cries again. I leave her be for a few seconds, realize this won’t stop and bring her to the living room where she proceeds to cry and cry and cry. I give her a drink she drinks it, then cries and cries and cries. So then 10 before 6am in comes Andi crying her head off. She woke up way to early and in trying to comfort her Lily is just screaming. I put Andi on the couch with a blanket and milk and put on her show. Well apparently her show isn’t her show today and the child flips! She flips out! She wants to watch things that aren’t on. I tell her she can watch this or this and she wants something entirely different, not even on yet. She is screaming, I start screaming and Lily is crying. It was awful and I wish I would have handled it differently, but man, I was tired and so frustrated!
Anyway, Andi apologized. Lily just stopped crying, for no reason, just as her crying was for no reason, and I made my coffee and retreated to the computer for a little solitude. A little writing time.
Lily is off school today, but because I still have to work she will spend the day with her nurse. I’m sure they will have a nice day. Her nurse is so good to take her on daily walks and gets her outside, although it is already getting too hot.
Andi is going to school and I am going to work. We have a very busy weekend and I am tired thinking about it all.
Hope you all have a great weekend!

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