Calm Amongst the Chaos

Mama of 5 seeking calm in the chaos

I always do this, wait too long to post then post a monstrous post that only my dear mother will read all the way through and do it again and again. Sorry. I used to post while Ollie napped and the girls were in school, but you know summer break…. Kinda like working 24/7. You moms hear me. Holla. (that is like a shout out for you older folks, I kid, I kid)
So what is up right now? Lots. Too much. I seem unable to get well. I had strep 2x, then got a UTI and then apparently a stomach virus. This stomach virus was up for much debate, it happened after a date night to the Diamondback/Yankee game. I had 2 beers then a bloody mary. A lot for me, but not the most I have ever drank (you feelin me?) and I ate a hot dog and a pretzel with cheese, my friends it was a baseball game, that is par for the course. Well we have a blast; I did a lot of heckling to the crowd since I was overly annoyed in the fact that our state has no patronage. We were stuck in a land of pinstripes and had to do my part on behalf of our home team. You know if they don’t win it’s a shame. They cheer like idiots for Alex Rodriguez and knowing this state it is only because they see him in US Weekly all the time. But I digress, we have a blast and go home make sure the kids still had food and water, just kidding again, pay the sitter and go to bed. I wake up at 3am and not feel too well and you all know what happens from there. But Andrew is insistent I am hung over. I am insistent I got food poisoning. I don’t think I have ever been that violently sick. I still take Andi to the water park the next day with my good girlfriend and her 2 daughters because I promised and I am going to be gone most of next week at the hospital with Lily. I made it through the day barely and came home and passed out. I ended up with a low grade fever and Andrew still insists I have a hangover, and then I might have just maybe wished him ill just to prove my point and guess who called to day to say he was sorry, I was right and he is one sick dog. Ahhh I feel bad, sure, but it sure does feel good to be right. I know my body, I know my limits and I haven’t thrown up from drinking since, gosh I don’t even remember. I knew I was not hung over. Sorry for such a hard lesson, but you know I do still adore and love you. And sorry to all of you for the longest story to not be important and recorded.
Anyway, my point is I’ve been not feeling myself for over a month now and I am just waiting for the day to come where I sit and say, hey I feel good. It will happen. This happened 3 years ago when I got real sick and it took a month to get right again. Let’s pray for at least another 3 years for this crap to happen.
Lily sat up that one day and it was awesome. Since then Lily has been having out of control seizures and has been unhappy and inconsolable at times. This is just the ride we are on. One step forward, 2 steps back. I don’t know why the seizures are so out of control, but I am so glad we are going to the hospital next week for monitoring. What great timing. Yesterday she had 2 large seizures and pretty much cried the entire day. But when I took her to the pool she was happy. When she sat in the shade after the pool she was happy. The minute her butt came inside she cried. It was annoying and funny at the same time. Annoying because she was acting like a whiney brat who cries when she doesn’t get her way. But funny because it proves this kid knows what she wants and doesn’t like to not get it. I wish I could video her in the pool, but she is in my arms the whole time so I really can’t share. But she loves the pool. My goodness she does. She lights up in there.
I am not sure how she will handle being in a hospital room all day long for a few days. She does not fair well with boredom.
I think I am going to stop here. Andi is asking me to spell every word of the English language and it is really throwing my concentration off and Ollie has just woken up and is hollering from his crib. Why is it the only day he sleeps til 8:30 am (!) the neighbors dog wakes me up at 5:45am? Really? Really?

2 thoughts on “Can a girl catch a break?

  1. NANCY says:

    Yes, Mom always reads the entire blog 🙂

  2. Just so you know….I always read your blog…from beginning to end. 🙂

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