This is for all you mama’s out there who have withered the storms and changed who we are for people who stole our hearts from the moment they were growing in us, handed to us, or fostered by us, however they came to us, they are ours and we live for them and that changes …
It was a moment I heard a calming voice within my soul, I remember the exact time, where I was, what I was doing. The whisper was clear and profound. I was praying “God please stop her suffering” and in return I heard a whisper from deep inside asking, “whose suffering?” I stop, I think …
I was in a Mothers Who Write Workshop this fall, as I have mentioned before, and this was one of my assignments I never turned in. Our task was to write a letter to our teenage self. This was the toughest one I was given. I struggled and struggled with writing it. I like to …
I have not written one line since November. Ok well besides facebook one liners, those seem to be all I am able to accomplish lately. Writing makes me happy. Writing completes me so I guess lately, I have been incomplete. I barely survived Christmas. It was the first year I begged to be over before …
I had just sat down on our couch, totally surrendering after the long day that was eerily similar to the day before and the one before that, when my 4 year old son asks me ever so nonchalantly, “When are you going to get pregnant again?”. I almost spit out my wine, another piece of …
Many years ago I had a doctor tell me “When you have a child with such severe mental retardation they have many autistic traits.” This was an answer to my “does she have autism too?” question.Gulp.I saw the word mental retardation on a report of hers once, but I never heard the words come flying …
Hope looks like a million different things to a million different people. Hope is in a rainbow, hope is in a new day, hope is even in a jar at the mall. Hope can look like something insignificant to me, but the world to someone else. What does my hope look like? My hope looks …
Our family is going to Camp Land in San Digeo tomorrow!Yup! We are going to CAMP Land tomorrow.CAMPing.Yup.I grew up camping. My job was to get in the car, defend myself from my siblings who started beating on me when they were done staring out the window, era 1980’s, and play until the tent was …
I’ve been wanting to share what happened to Lily last week, but I guess not too much since I haven’t.It was an awful experience and sharing it really doesn’t make me feel any better.Last Sunday we were all ready for church, I had Lily showered, looking adorable and all strapped in her chair. That isn’t …
OK back in May, which only felt like yesterday, we went to see Taylor Swift in concert. I am not a big concert goer. Well anymore… I went to some pretty sweet shows back in my day… New Kids, MC Hammer, Debbie Gibson, Bon Jovi, Lollapalooza (95), George Strait, … yes I went to some …
Calm Amongst the Chaos 